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So far so good
I’m back.
The Jimmy Eat World and Tedeschi Trucks concerts (months ago) were amazing. I also saw Men I Trust last Fall, that was a very calming concert.
Saw the Stardew Symphony Of Seasons this past Friday with Heather as well.
That was a very moving experience… Almost like in Earthbound where you have a sort of checkpoint moment and reflect on how far you’ve come and what you’ve done. That was nice.Hoping to wise up and use this domain or another one to start integrating with my computer homelab I’ve been hitting a stride with. I’d like to host a few more game servers and might use this domain rather than exposing my public IP long term.
But yes, on the homelab front I’ve really got into organizing and backing up my data, of which there is a lot. There’s a lot of media, like hundreds of giggys of music, movies, etc. But also some files that you just don’t get back and that are more personal; all these song recordings from my iPod touch from high school, several notepad files when I use to journal, all the photos I’ve taken from my highschool iPod up to the phone I use today, all that crap I created in RPG Maker VX in middle school up to the Godot experimentation and asset hoarding of today, and so on.
The list keeps growing and its been messy for so long, its nice to get it more clean, and a solution to back it up that is more long-term. I’m hoping to keep experimenting with my server and learn more about IT and benefit my skillset for the future. I’ll keep you updated here.
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Looking ahead
A couple things have been keeping me going.
1) Jimmy Eat World concert coming up in a couple weeks.
2) Tedeschi Trucks Band in October.Category: Life -
Finished reading “The City and Its Uncertain Walls”

Finally got back into reading about a week or so back. Or rather, found a book I’ve cared to finally download and read on my phone.
Murakami has sort of been a safe landing spot for me, among the incredibly large (endless, even) amount of choices on what to read next. I appreciate the way he writes and the worlds that he creates which implements the unreal and impossible with the realness and logic of the normal world.Up to this point, many of the books I’ve read by him are pretty similar in that regard, and some might say TOO similar, and I can’t really disagree. Each book I’ve read seems to center around a man who is just going through the motions, and will often be 50% lost in the big picture of the world and 50% hardened, grounded routines like reading and listening to jazz, in order to fortify himself for the next day. The mundane of his worlds often come with a red carpet to introduce a glimmer of spirituality or otherworldly elements almost as a hopefulness that there is greater meaning or a connection to it all.
I could elaborate more on my full Murakami journey so far, perhaps another time. His pros and cons as an author are pretty widely discussed and known already, much of which I can agree on both sides and still press onward to read more.
I will say for this book, he managed to write women pretty fairly this time around. In this book (The City…) we start on the hyper-fixation of one girl, our main guy being a teenager at this time, and it ultimately sets the tone of our main character living life being more reserved for 30 years after this girl disappears, which actually happens not long after the 17 year old main character simply imagines to himself taking it to the next level with her. Now that I think of it, most sexual thoughts and passages are brief, and ultimately met with feelings of shame and regret of even considering the thought. Perhaps spoilers, but there is little or almost zero sex scenes in this book, so hey, that’s a first in my Murakami journey so far. This is a contrast from the main characters of books past fucking around 3 women per novel or more, sometimes it being a teacher he barely knows or even his own mother (I think? Still need to re-read that one…).
We got a big focus on libraries again, but I suppose its a staple I need to come to accept at this point, and indeed I still acknowledge there is something special about libraries, especially if you’re from a pre-internet era where you are a Google search away from the answers to many of your questions.
This novel actually strongly reminded me of Kafka By The Shore in the beginning, both containing 2 co-existing worlds, one more ghostly than the other. After a few pages I think it found its own footing, for me at least, and became its own book, probably with the start of Part 2.
I guess I’d call this post a review. Maybe more so an answer to the question “Would you recommend this book being worth the time it takes to read it?”. And I would answer: Yeah, I think so.
There’s still more Murakami I’ve yet to read, but I’m particularly fond of the styles found in Wind Up Bird, and Kafka by The Shore, and I would consider The City to be right up there with them.
This book is another series of dreams and interpretations, which kept me entertained and reading in bed for about a week.
On a more personal level, I’ve felt I have found this book when I “needed” it, similar to my other Murakami experiences as well. There is also heavy talks about one’s “shadow” and what they mean to people, so I’m pretty sure this novel is HEAVY on Jungian theory and ideals, that of which I’ve been trying to dabble into or simply read throughout this year.
It was nice to have it wrapped up in a more fictional, dreamy tale rather than deciphering more philosophical text and sorting from dialogue of those who are speaking of their own 3rd person understanding of it.Category: Life -
Time
Here’s a track I worked on a year or so ago? I was in a very strange place.
I was playing a lot of Dota at the time. One of my go-to things to do after work was put on some lofi music and just eat shit in lane.
I’ve still got a ways to go when it comes to music, far behind where I ought to be. So its a simple lofi track I’ve made here, but I’m attached to it.
Its a track made up mostly of voice lines from characters who can’t user their abilities yet. The script seems to be mostly the same for many characters so its easy for many of them to just chime in as we explore what it means to wait and the consequences of not being able to do what you could do because you’ve already done it.
Of what it means to not be ready when you need the ability the most.
Category: Music