This past month has been a ride.
I’ve done a lot of introspection and have stared down at my reflection for a greater amount of time than usual.
Life has changed, and will continue to change no matter which angle I try to see it at. It became extremely overwhelming for a hot moment.
I think this month was just one of those reminders that forward is the only real direction.
Things might have been a certain way, and now they are not.
Things may have appeared to look one way, but maybe the truth is different.
Things are moving on and you can only really control yourself and how you feel.
This is a very easy thing to say and is always thrown around but I’m finding it very hard to navigate. Feels like this always.
It feels like the only real outcome I’ve produced over the last 30 days or so has been to try to internalize “do better” as much as I can. I haven’t been at my best in a while. What does my best look like? Would I be better if I stopped doing this and did that instead?
I’ve looked at some more behaviors, habits, and priorities that I’d like to adjust. I’ve taken a closer look at some “role models”. Not to solely emulate them, but to acknowledge that maybe this is what things can look like when I finally boil down and put the work in to feel better about myself and the moments that I’m in now.
On another note, I did watch Dune for the first time just a couple days before Part 2 came out. I was able to see Dune 2 early enough with a decent seat. The very front rows may be undesirable, but we got the last row back of the front section (if that makes sense), and it actually isn’t a terrible view once you’re reclined and its a very comfortable experience.
I might just need to make a separate post about my Dune experience, haha.
But I did appreciate how Dune was an amazing escape for me at a time when I felt like I was just completely in the dark. So consumer media therapy CAN help.
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